Yes, Yes, facebook is more popular than blogger now.... and everything about people is available on Facebook... Sorry, for I havent mastered clicking facebook as yet! haha! and i found that OMG, Baldy went to ROME! The place I'd love to go. But trust me, I'd be there in years to come, I will definitely visit the Colosseum... erm.. lazy to check that spelling... But, its darn COOOOOOL, even though it costs big bucks! Look, the pixs he'd posted!
One word - Majestic.
Okay, I'd be leaving soon... I will miss everyone back home... so much that i think about never leaving them behind in Singapore again. but I have a promise with Qingyun, that we'd visit switzerland together in 2013, that promise, I have to keep, for its something for me to look forward to. Yesterday I chilled out qith QY at .. bishan library and PS! okay, i know normal people do not go to the library to Chill... but.. It was so beautiful a day, we simply sat there reading, then off to window shop at J8 and PS, and we shared a drink at Carls'Jr Free flow while reading again, haha!!! Its PERFECT relaxation, I cannot think of another close pal who would do that with me :) I'd go chill with her again, definitely! Mum encouraged me to go chill and yes, though I'd be leaving tmr, I made time out with her, because Greeny friends are too precious to lose. :) So sorry, for my lousy phone with the lousy camera, hmm... pretty memories just cannot be captured - till then. Lova ya, see you all soon! ay.starsplash//
I'll be back in time for christmas!!! Sentosa gift exchange folks!! :)
Title: no one knows.
Thursday, December 10, 2009 / 10:49 PM
It was steamboat bbq dinner time, and guess what! A little far back it was drumming my beloved techno music! OMG.. i didnt want to come home... :( haha... imagine I go to the amphitheatre and start dancing to the techno beats! I want to go clubbing, one day, when I'm stubborn enough and brave enough to tell mum so... YES. Cycling at east coast park today.. didnt make my 3 hours of cycling worth because they sat down to watch the scenery of macho man skiing over the waters:( , but it had been a great time out with classmates Huiting Mich and Jiaxin:) My maiden outing with them... Yeah, i guess I'm no longer a noob at cycling, i managed to turn round and round around the area of palm trees in circular plots! haha... so fun, like a merry-go-round! Yep, you did it ay! Steamboat dinner, and my whole tummy is 98% filled with my favourite Dori fish!!! I eat nothing but FISH! Good omega 3 oils and fatty collagen without sins.. haha!!! BUT nothing, can ever replace the heavenly humble steamboat at MARINA BAY beneath the stars which i have enjoyed with Greeny Gang years back... Gone, forever, all because of the Integrated Resort. Humph! Okay.. that's it, pics up next time... I tell you, the techno music rocked the beach man! But you know the agony, when no one around you knows how special this music is.. and no one gets so high with you, I just got to suppress the euphoria... Monsy, i miss cycling with you!!! Goodbye...
This Morning I dreamt of myself playing netball, the exact netball tournament I participated in with class 2/5, in that familiar parade square, with the same old pro netballers in class, Mindy and PeiXuan! I was the shooter like usual, you know, I had been so proud being the shooter... lol... because several years back mine was an average height so i got that position, it was so glorious... haha!!! Yes, and my class came in champion in reality! My first sports trophy in my life you know! XD
Title: bittersweet
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 / 5:08 PM
Sent Randy bro off at the airport yesterday with Cheryl Tan!!! :) didnt take any photos since i lost my phone, the one i'm currently using produces too embarassing pics... and then off we went to bugis to shop!!! oh, i'm.. er , trying to change my wardrobe! haha.. Thanks to cheryl for being like my... personal assistant helping me hold things while i tried on clothings.... Its still very much within my budget! Left 1 last thing to buy, before I'm totally satiated.. haha.. we shopped for 3 hours! Then accompanied cheryl to the bustop and i brisk walked to the library!! following that brisk walked to the hawker centre to buy dinner back home for dad and myself, reached home at 8 plus, around 10, flop, i'm off to dreamland... Recently my dreams have been revolving around what I encounter with during the day.. and I'm too lazy to decipher what these dreams meant in my 'book of dreams' anymore.. hmm.. aint it all conincidental?
At 3a.m, i received a message from my classmate Yemin! Oh, he's so sweet i'm telling you! Never expected him to be so sentimental over leaving Singapore... though we do fret over work together and the many quarrels with him I've had during the eventful PW days... here's what he said: hey anna. see you next year. thank you for ur card. i'll keep it well. now cannot sleep cos too excited, going to airport at 5.45am. take care ya. dont be too stubborn. tell melissa to take care too. aint it sweet? haha! hmm.. probably he's older than us, so he's naturally more mature and is able to appreciates life more... yup!
The airport yesterday was a nice place, cheryl said what's so nice about it.... but, Its nice!!! the place of transit between where you belong and somewhere new, different. I love being on the plane, indulging in sinful food and hoping to catch stars... i cant belive myself being in midair. The trip to Thailand with OSLE was my first step out of my comfort zone into independence, though i sat alone on the ride home, i felt proud of myself. I know "things" aint that rigid, somehow. I made friends with the warm uncles and aunties sitting around me :)
I dont know how I'm feeling now... bittersweet? Lazing on the sofa, i cant recall just several weeks ago i had been mugging hard into my papers on such a sultry afternoon - numbed - and my mind shuts itself out of every scene of it. I EDont Ever want to relive those days, never. Its too tormenting on me. I can feel something unknotted within. Something I'll keep straight, for as long as I can.
In a fit of anger, they seem to forget all the nice things am i right? all the little nice things others have done, and all you see is the bad deed they have just committed....... When people grow old, i feel its as though one becomes oblivious, where you -Yourself- no longer know what peculiar acts one does, you become sensitive towards others' éccentricities', but you dont know where you might have gone wrong.. are we supposed to give in, and let live? I know i will grow old one day, but i see them speaking about each other, how they comment on each other, when the other is oblivious... its so sad. I cant do anything. I just hope it will be over soon.
Title: temporary.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 / 12:16 AM
Before i begin, I'm gonna recount on an outdated hype...I just watched SECRET by Jay Chou!haha.. it was aired on TV during the exam period, so mine was a recorded version... I would seriously grade it 5 stars... It has been ages since i have been so provoked by a movie - about a poignant love story. Is it possible a living person so devastated, the entire world crumbles beneath her weak legs; she falls into a pile on the ground and she forgot to breathe forever? That emotion, i have figured out, somewhat asphyxiating... And i picture moments in my life that i would and might have encountered this... over... death and i dont ever want my boyfriend to be from the past... Do magical things really happen? - like the piano that transformed the girl 20 years into future? Would it have been 1 in a million years a miracle occurred? I have never really paid much attention to Jay Chou, but his role in this film portrayed his immaculate love.. I can never handle such disruption in my life, i'd definitely collapse.Daydreaming- is a scary thing. Sometimes i could just stare into space and picture a railway length of thoughts, pastpresentfuture... for in that few moments, I'm ldrifting, till minutes later I'm jerked out of it back into study mode... it sounds absurd but Few years back, the tangible fear of lingering in dreamscape forever made me instruct my closest friends to pull me out. So I wouldnt hurt anyone around me. Nontheless, dreaming is the sweetest and most magical thing that my mind has ever devised. Though i still hold my reservations on my apprehensions.
Stayed over at aunt's house for a night, it was like a customised chalet... the warmth of Aunt''s family was my best remedy. Despite how much i abstain from recounting dreadful A levels, done badly in some ways, and I wanna tell mum that if I fail to make it, I would go to Poly to pursue my Environmental course. But i would be so sorry for the rest of my life having them spend so much money on me, G.C, examination fees, the tonic potions... That’s when it happened, after Mid-years when my self esteem was strained, I told mum it didn’t work anymore, stop brewing traditional potions for me because it had not brought results, but mum persisted. When I felt like on the verge of collapsing, my friends witnessed my dazy-ness and enquired if i were alright, and i spoke - a little bit more, ANNA YEO!!! When I lost interest in studying, after the exams it was just like vavaboom! And over, it was, without me realising all that I have done for these two years had been accounted for in that 1 paper.
In NYJC, Baldy said sleeping would become a luxury. Baldy said I still haven’t made it for Bio. Baldy said never to lose faith in yourself. He has said so many many things... no grudges , just that he has made me feel like an underdog, i was never near to his standards of perfection, i felt he was toying with my self-esteem, i have cried so badly. The day i felt i could have ran out of school, alone.In NYJC, NEVER have I pronounced the word Fail so blatantly like... daily bread, EVER in my life. I guess things change right? The climate changes, and I just can’t handle academics anymore. I have tried my best. But I know the limit hardworking-ness can go. For i don’t have the brains to study Smart, like everyone preaches. fretting over Geog grades, because it’s the only Subject I’m banking all my hopes on. But I’m telling you, my worries are genuine, if you don’t know ay.starsplash, I’m telling you I really don’t know how i have fared, Okay. Here, i get so muddled in grasping my studies, many times mum fretted over work and none of it enters my head... I’m sorry for not being really there for you. I wrote you a note, in my most dire states.... furthermore, i did not reply to an email sent by RJ, a secondary school friend who hasn’t really moved on with our past encounter. I was mugging for exams, he lost his phone just like I have, no more contacts, no birthday well wishes, though i never forgot. I visited a friend’s blog to try to link to his; it has since been blocked to public. Boom! That’s how we lost total contact, maybe its for the better after 5 years. The unanswered email spoke of my heartlessness, right?
At the customised Chalet "package", aunt’s extravagant Swensens treat was just like a temporary pot of dough used to fill up my empty desperations, the stuffing chilly icecream to numb all my worries - I don’t know how to speak of. Yesterday on my way to school for exam, an old lady reached out for my arm and begged for a dollar or just 50 cents, which i have refused and walked away. Would you have stopped by? How fake, AY, joking jovially about the goodluck Mum had written on the First day of my exams, with a Ha-Ha, thank you!!!, when you were crying... Placed with faith on my school bag. But . too much love make me will break down. Its a solitary expedition this Journey in JC. When things go out of hand, I really break down at once. After Chem prelims, i was bursting. messaged Randy Bro; Words - I believed at once. Have you a friend, as such?
There's just too much I haven’t said since my struggles in school. Not emo? :) ay.starsplash.
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